I have a psychological memory from my upbringing that money is earned and should be spent as long as you keep earning. I see money as something that needs to be spent. If I see something I like or desire, I buy it without minding the cost as long as I really like it.
This is not a problem from your upbringing, in my opinion, just that you view it in the wrong way. Money is not spent as you see, and normally money is earned to be spent, but we should spend it wisely. Sometimes we don’t get anything we want, and that is natural for humans, which you fail to understand from the beginning. We won’t get anything we want, so I think that is where you got it wrong. However, normally, if we see what we like, we need to buy it, but we should first look at our way of earning. We should spend money wherever we find it. We should have a plan for everything we do. I hope this has taught you a lesson. I believe you will spend wisely now, as no condition is permanent.