OP, the only people who could lose a significant amount of money at gambling and pretend nothing bad had happened to them are millionaires or people with strong hearts. I don't think I could bear losing a significant amount of money for the time being. I therefore like to gamble with what little I have so that I won't experience a shock that might have an adverse effect on my physical or mental health if I lose.

A significant amount of money lost to gambling or any other activity will remain imprinted in my memory for a very long time, and it will motivate me to stay away from the things that first caused the loss.

OP, I'm not sure if you actually lost the $200k you bet at the casino, but if you did, try to reduce the amount you used to bet. Avoid making large bets with the intention of making enormous earnings all at once.