You don't look desperate but you are the impatient type. From the way you have done it so far, it seems that you are very experienced in trading Bitcoin and you have also made a lot of profits. Indeed, HOLDing bitcoin is one of the best strategies for getting maximum profits in the future.
Usually people who don't give up are always more patient in waiting for maximum profits in the future by holding Bitcoin in their own wallet. Because impatient people will not be able to hold Bitcoin for a long period of time for profit, in fact such people will usually panic more easily when they see a price correction in the market or a drop in prices in the market, even if it is only for a moment. So this is the opposite, where the OP is a very patient person if he is able to hold Bitcoin for a long time.