People tend to look for excuses when they feel guilty, so first step is to understand that it is ok to make mistakes, that you are still a human being capable of improvement and adaptation. You are not bad because you are gambling too much, you are bad if you decide to do nothing about it. Forgive yourself, move on, change and improve.
Really impossible that you cant really be able to determine on whats good and whats bad. Its true that even on the time that we are seeing that it is already negatively affecting us but still
you didnt really make any actions but rather you do continue on what you are doing. People would really be just completely stopping on the time that they wont be able to make some bets anymore.
This is a common scenario or common situation on which it isnt really that shocking anymore. We would really be just that making steps or actions on the time that
we are already that devastated on which if we had just made outright decisions then we wont really be making yourself fall out into such condition.