You should try a local community or church. You haven't been a positive influence here, so you shouldn't expect help from HODLers.
Sorry to hear about your grandmother; strokes suck.
I don't know what should I say. As I said, I will try my best to collect money from other sources. Even if anyone can't help just pray for her. Expectation is a bad thing and often you get disappointed from it. So I am not expecting much. Whatever help I get, it will be appreciated. Even if someone wants to give it as a loan, I will take it. I will repay them back for sure.