It is very difficult to me...I always trade in the opposite direction and lost money...
It's sad, but you're not the only one who loses his money trading. According to statistics, 90% of traders lose their money. And the fact that almost everyone writes on the forum that they trade and make a profit is just a desire to pose as a successful trader, and not a statement of reality.
Some traders prefer to be okay and continue trading hoping for some luck like they are in gambling rather than telling what really happens to them.
That certainly happened to me, not all the time I was in profit, the same thing with losses but that is normal. But as I've tried to evaluate the number of times that I was in profit, I find out that I lost more than what I earned - quite disappointing. So I decided not to focus on trading and I'm now more into investing because I see it was less stressful.
People are ready to say okay after a lose rather than over-thinking on losses but we should try harder next time. We need to figure out why we lose, and what can we do in order to improve. Not just we will do the same act and just purely relying in luck because nothing will happen to us with that. We can only get the same results. It's also fine to confess the issue to someone who think is better than us.
This is what I heard last time to a one influencer, that we should admit that we are not good and someone out there is better and will always be better than us. It's also okay to venture other things like what you did, if we can't seem to improve on the one that we are currently doing.