You may actually be right on saying that am only interested in merit but I want you to understand that everyone in this BTT forum needs merit in other to grow so it shouldn't look as if because my current threads are focused on discussion about merit then it now sounds as if I needed it more than anyone else. I know I'm a newbie and it is important for me to learn and make quality posts before I think of earning merits of which I'm trying my best and if you watch closely I do more of learning and making research before creating threads.
What was said to you was right, it is not as though you are the only one looking for merit but talking about it all the time makes you more desperate than others because even if they are than you they conceal it. If you get to desperate to get those merits you will be looking to get it fast and that could cause you to break some rules. Two of your trades created are actually about merit, this will only get you into ignore list of merits sources that will see your posts as merit fishing post. As advice above just grow in knowledge and things will take its place.