It takes just a personal thought to give your own self a remark but takes a lot of process to find errors out of it simply because you are doing your best with the hope of that, you think you could be usually on the right tracks but deep down you are going Contrarily to the quest.
You are a newbie equal to a beginner and these moderators are certainly more experienced than you do in this space so,  please don't feel grudge nor sentimental instead, have rethinks on how you could reshuffle and make a better difference.
I am used to believe that whoever that is going or doing the wrong side of it would never realize itself until there is an outcome of his/her deeds as a result.
You tendencies to accept your mistakes and take another path for a better direction is your ability to be submissive that yeah, I take the blame, i was wrong and willing to make it right again.