Expectations can be quite harmful to a person's life when it's not met, depression is bound to happen especially when you are surrounded by people whose actions or words seem to remind everytime of how much you've failed to achieve, at this point your mental health should be the most important to you irrespective of who is making you feel like you've failed or failing.

If you've tried numerous times and still couldn't succeed in that area then you should know you have to look somewhere else, just try not to allows people's expectations to weigh u down