Welcome back mate, you should know that the journey of a thousand miles begins with a step and sucesse is only limited those that doesn't work towards it, don't be discourage , it was not easy for me too when I started but today am making a lot of progress because I have chosen not to give up, it took me more than a month before I was able to understand what is going on the the forum, firstly I will say that for you to get what you are looking for itis important that you have a closer watch to those that are making progress and do what they are doing that was how I was able to be where I am today,  the forum is more like am academic environment where liked minds shares views and opinion as regards to Bitcoin and life generally, by making a meaningful, constructive and and informative post.