I'm also beginner in trading. I trade since this summer and I lost about $90 on $120 account. Recently I make $20 on last $34.
Throughout my journey in trading, I read Jack Schwager's book, watched many educational videos on YouTube, read many articles on the educational sections of CEX exchanges, and also talked with many traders. It seems to me that I understand enough about technical analysis, trading systems and trader psychology. But I'm at a dead end and don't know what to do next. Other traders advised me to just trade, but I think that over time I will lose my remaining $45, and demo trading does not bring such emotions and I don’t want to try hard when trading it
Reading articles concerning trading and and facing the reality of trading which is trading with money are not the same. You can get the whole knowledge from reading books about trading but it doesn't makes you if you starts trading you will start making good profit. No matter what you have read to gain knowledge in trading never use big amount of money for trading as a beginner. Start with small amount and learn , get experience about the market.
Amount of time you trade and your experience will teach you more than what you have gotten from trading articles by reading. Beginners should not be too fast to use big money to trade, using small amount of money is still part of learning trading. Using big amount of money to start trading is a waste because you will still definitely lose because of lack of ideas and experience.