Perhaps a bit off topic regarding the actual situation of OP and anyone who could be practicipating in this section of the forum.
But back in college, we have a person who seemed to be completely normal, but one time we discovered (while he was traveling abroad) that he suffers from squizophrenia.
While he was in that travel, he started to claim the police was after him and they had put some localizing device in his belongings.
His situation got so bad that he had to be deported from the United States because his erratic behavior around others.
I am not saying this is the same case of that person we met in college, but I cannot personally allow the similarities to pass by me and not recall what that person had to go through during what was supposed to be a relaxing vacation travel in the USA with his family.
This is like one of the most common answers I get. Nobody will believe you when you are actually in a program like MK ULTRA.
That doesn't mean I should stop resisting against torture and psychological abuse. Some day someone will believe me. Someone will make this stop.
I am not doubting on the existence of Mk ultra, actually nowadays we know as a fact such programs for the government of the United States to pursue to develop mental control techniques and also the use of drugs to control others was very real.
The achievements of the program were so remarkable and interesting for the government of the USA and the intelligence agencies of the country, that (if we are realistic) it is very unlikely they actually stopped those experiment in the last century.
Probably there are programs like that one still going on, but how is people supposed to know the difference from someone who is actually being victim of those horrible things and other who happens to be suffering from schizophrenia or other mental issues which does not allow them to see reality as it is actually supposed to be?
It is a challenge and I personally do not seek to ridicule you or anything. Just felt curious about your ... Situation.