This is like one of the most common answers I get. Nobody will believe you when you are actually in a program like MK ULTRA.
That doesn't mean I should stop resisting against torture and psychological abuse. Some day someone will believe me. Someone will make this stop.
Telling random internet strangers about government conspiracies is unlikely to get you the help you need. Do you have anyone close to you that you can confide in? Perhaps a friend or relative? They would likely know you best. Do you feel like they wouldn't trust you?