Here is my advice for you, don't get worried about your past, focus on the present and the future plans you have, if you have money, then you can achieve most of your dreams and become more successful in life, people also think about how they can live up with someone who is not going to be a liability on them, you can really start from somewhere with bitcoin investment, had it been you had invested and hold ever since your first experience in crypto, you couldn't have been broke anymore by now, but all you can do is in fixing up the future by investing now and hold, when you make it, even those that have left you will by then be regretting.