You are Russian. Why are you writing in the English section? Because you know that your Russian comrades can send you very far? Don't tell horror stories about your hard life. There are representatives of countries here that live much worse than your country, but these are proud people who do not allow themselves to be reduced to alms, but work at several jobs, including this forum. It is very sad to see a man who lived to be forty years old but never became an adult.
You were advised to go to war, you can solve your financial problems. And don’t say that laziness is not about you.