Frist this analyse your self level. It more important thing. If analyse your self you will check and improve your knowledge. So don't demotivate your self. That is improve your self, If not believe your self you will be not improve. So analyse your self then will be know about and what we will be improve the next level process. Knowledge is improve this for everting.
Many times it happens that in a person's life, there are accidents and incidents and such turns occur that he feels that living life has become difficult and impossible.
Sometimes the conditions of the countries become bad and sometimes some accidents and incidents happen to the people living there that it becomes difficult for them to live and they become very hopeless and disappointed, at that time, only courage and heart do not work, there is a need for a person or an initiative that can have an impact on their lives or benefit them.
I'm saying this because I can feel the difficulties OP must be facing and the emotions and feelings he must be going through. After all, I myself live in a developing country and I understand very well that when the country's conditions are bad, how absorption becomes stagnant and efforts go in vain.
Still, I will say that you should not lose heart, you have to survive in any situation and you should do it.
Many people may be living and working in difficult conditions. Economic crises and poor management can make things even more difficult. When conditions worsen, we must strive to improve the situation. Of course, it is not easy to try, but something needs to be done to improve things.
We need to know our limits and capacity. We must not forget that knowledge is always power and improving ourselves is very important.