Did he ever apologise for your despicable sustained attack on a specific forum member when he was leaving the forum due to health related issues?
Or to those he made wild accusations towards simply because they were wearing the signature of a mixer yet pointed out the flaws of Wasabi Wallet because of their blockchain analysis implementation?
It seems he and inner peace might be incompatible.
May you soften your absolutist perspective on life, stop viewing everything in black and white, and allow yourself to consider new information. I believe this will lead you to inner peace.