You should stay away from gambling because it's all a real lie, to hell with gambling and the like. to satoshi thank you for making all the new buzz. if you are still in this world I'm sure you will make another breakthrough for many people who are addicted to gambling. because I think gambling is the worst substance than drugs. but it seems like you are gone, and I will also catch up with you if I don't get a way out from the gambling trap that ruined my finances until I'm deeply in debt.
As far as I understand, you have big financial problems? Have you lost a lot of money gambling? And now you even owe big money to other people? This is a very bad situation.
However, as long as you are alive, there is always hope. You can eventually get out of this situation and fully restore your financial situation. There are various legal instruments for this - for example, the bankruptcy procedure for individuals. Perhaps you will find other solutions. Now, in my opinion, the most important thing is to overcome gambling addiction.
This can be done, for example, with the help of another addiction (according to the principle - to put out fire with fire). As a result, both of your addictions will weaken and will not cause you problems.