You should stay away from gambling because it's all a real lie, to hell with gambling and the like. to satoshi thank you for making all the new buzz. if you are still in this world I'm sure you will make another breakthrough for many people who are addicted to gambling. because I think gambling is the worst substance than drugs. but it seems like you are gone, and I will also catch up with you if I don't get a way out from the gambling trap that ruined my finances until I'm deeply in debt.
I will say you went too far with your gambling habit, this is due to been addicted to gambling, alot of people have been addicted that gambling without even noticing it , they will think that they on the right track not knowing they are on the track to ruin their lives .
So I will advice you to stop gambling and try to build your self back it may take time , but with some support and help you will be just fine ,