I can really relate to your situation, as I faced a similar struggle in the last month. Like you where I found myself in a dark place after losing a significant important amount of money to gambling while also dealing with debts owed to friends and on Bitcointalk. The strong pressure led me to thoughts of suicide and depression at the moment and it felt like there was no way out. 

The only place I felt comfortable sharing my struggles initially was on Bitcointalk, and here is the thread where I opened up: The harsh reality of GxSTxV

However, I want to assure you that healing and recovery are possible. I shared again my journey toward rebuilding my life finding hope and working on myself in this thread: Recovery journey from gambling addiction.


Please know that you are not alone in this, and it’s okay to seek help and lean on others. Sharing your story is a brave first step in my opinion and also experience. Feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to or if I can help in any way.