but I feel good knowing I had a part of growing the community in the early days.
I once gave 8 BTC for cheeseburger like an idiot and after some time, now do not feel any useful belonging to the community in the early days. I just stupidly feel like I helped some Indian swindler who sold me a cheeseburger get rich
And that 8 Bitcoin which you bought with cheeseburger, had it been you held it till today, that would have been worth over $756,000 with the current price of Bitcoin been value at $94,500 per BTC at the time of writing this post. But however, that's the past, it's a new year, so let's focus on the future.
I don't want to mask my stupidity with some high-flown statements about how I was a bitcoin pioneer. I know that I'm a complete loser without money now. I realize this and I honestly declare it to you all.
You literally don't have to blame yourself for not holding unto Bitcoin for dear life (i.e HODL), because for the fact that you are a member of it's community and still holding a few percentage of Bitcoin in your wallet, that's literally a huge advantage, but only for you not to repeat the same mistake you did by not investing and holding unto a large percentage for over a longer period of time like 5 to 10yrs from now. Because one thing certain is that the future of Bitcoin is always bright and profitable.
I am deeply disappointed in Bitcoin and Satoshi. I'm telling it like it is.
I think you are the only person in the entire world I have heard made such statement, because why many are happy for how valuable Bitcoin has been over the years, it's sad to see someone disappointed in the project.