I never counted, but I think I have much bigger losses than gains. It is not hard to conclude that, but the thing is I never had big expectations of gambling. Sometimes I try out the site I find on forum and sometimes I just play on sites I already tried.
I mostly set a limited budget that I am willing to gamble and then count the losses in the end. I don't gamble with expectations to earn money.
not only you who are in that position, I also feel the same thing as you experience. honestly when I first got to know gambling I was consumed with the assumption of winning big and only winning at the beginning. and for a long time betting money lost without control but I realized that. making gambling not a place to find money but just entertainment and winning is just a bonus that I don't expect now. it is indeed difficult to conclude something that has made us destroyed