First step I would recommend is seeking help. More times than not, it is difficult to overcome a true addiction on your own. Recognizing the situation and seeking help is a strong step in beating it.
Please, it's a mistake that this topic is here. Was trying to move it to gambling discussion then I found it here. Please pardon me, still a newbie
I reported the thread for a mod to help you out in moving it to the right board.
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