There’s no need to make things harder for ourselves. If we’re afraid of losing money, then we shouldn’t be gambling in the first place. That’s just how gambling works, you win some, you lose some. But if someone still forces themselves to gamble despite that fear it could lead to addiction. why? Because the fear of losing might push them to chase losses, trying to recover every time they lose.
In short, gambling isn’t for the reckless, it’s for those who are smart enough to understand risk management.
This is the trap I fell into many years ago. First, I lost a lot of money, and then I wanted to win it all back, but this led to losses that were incomparable with my income. I had to ask banks for a loan. Do you understand? I went to a bank to borrow money to gamble? Naturally, the reason given was completely different, but this does not change the main point. In the end, I received these funds. And what do you think happened? Of course, this money was also wasted. It was a total failure in my life. Everything went to hell. What happened next? That's a separate story.
Would have loved to know how the story ended up later on for you, but I am guessing it wasn't so good, as I can already imagine it, and some experiences are better left unsaid since saying them can cause us to remember pains that we have long forgotten, and this may lead us to being emotional when we ought to be happy.
Anyways, happy for you that inspite of the challenges you must have gone through, you were able to make it out successfully and today, you can tell the story as one of your bad gambling experiences and lesson for others to learn from as well.
I believe every gambler out there at one point in their life have made one silly mistake that cost them good money and cursed them much pain, I myself is not an exception, but wouldn't want to talk about that at the moment.