Does sound a wee bit whiny... especially since it seems to me that you must be doing something wrong if you are saying that you are more poor today as compared to 2017 (inflation adjusted or whatever.. 

and even going by your forum registration date, you just got here during the later portions of the 2017 run, to the extent that you might have had started to buy BTC in 2017, yet even if you did not blow your whole wadd in the peak of 2017, you would have had 2018, 2019 and  2020 to accumulate bitcoin.. Holy fucking shit, there would have been, and should have had been opportunities to stack some sats in the past nearly 8 years, even if you had front-loaded your BTC investment in BTC at some point in late 2017.

So for example, if you had invested $100 per week into bitcoin starting from your forum registration date, you would have had invested nearly $40k, and accumulated nearly 3 BTC.    Yet you could have accumulated an additional 7 BTC or so, if you had been able to front load your investment into BTC with another $40k somewhere towards the beginning of the time that you came to the forum.  So that could have had been 10 BTC with $80k invested (those are mindrust amounts of BTC) .. and surely would not be a bad place to be and even should have had put you better off today as compared to BTC, especially if you had been able to focus on BTC, even if your dollar availability amounts might have had been different than the amounts I outlined as a possible budget.