Feeling like you are losing when the market goes down is an evidence of your misplacement of focus in your accumulation journey. Your main focus should be on your accumulation target and figure out ways to achieve it faster which includes being aggressive without over doing it and being very consistent in your purchases. The fall in price should be viewed as an opportunity to accumulate more quantities at the same price, or if you've saved for the dip earlier, then you can lump sum and get even much more quantities at a cheaper amount.

Aiming for crashes to accumulate bitcoin when you are a no coiner or low coiner isn't the best way to go about your bitcoin accumulation, you should be intentional, committed and consistent in your periodic purchases until you have accumulated a very good stash of bitcoin and are very near to your accumulation target with enough time left in your holding period before you can start thinking of accumulating your buy amounts and targeting dips in order to lump sum in it, buying more quantities and drawing much closer to your accumulation target with more quantities bought at the dip. As a new guy in bitcoin accumulation, targeting dips alone to buy would see you incubating trader's mindset and possibly jeopardizing your accumulation journey at a time you should demonstrate seriousness and commitment to your accumulation journey with consistent and persistent purchases using your discretionary income regardless of the price of bitcoin.