I think your obsession is shallow, you need to quit being an observer and get into the game.

Have you invested some cold cash into Bitcoin yet? I think you should take your admiration and obsession a step further and own some stashes of Bitcoin for yourself, that way, you'll deepen the love and obsession in Bitcoin and learn more about it as you advance in your accumulation journey.

All your theoretical learning wouldn't be sufficient or effective if those learnings are not done practically, so get actionable about your admiration of Bitcoin