What? You won $10k from a $20 deposit? And you lost it all in the same session? If I am interpreting this correctly you must be in a world of pain at that time. But again it is good that you are aware of 'perspectives' as you only lost $20 in the end lol. That must have been the learning experience of a lifetime and I sincerely hope you have learned a lot from that experience.
There is a saying with which you must be familiar, ''Easy come easy...'