I'm hiding it of course, If i showed them what I feel, it'll just me becoming vulnerable and of course too many advice will give to me that I really don't need 'cause I know what I'm doing. People will also think that I'm doing some bad stuff and that'll ruin their perspective towards me so it's better to solo the emotions I feel and not show it to everyone. And besides, soloing the emotions when losing is not hard, it's part of life and normal, it's easy to justify loses because it's gambling, it's not guaranteed to win even with your skills so it's okay. It teaches you how to stay grounded and be aware on what you're doing. In the end, your mindset matters more than the outcome, and carrying by yourself is not a problem, it's not heavy anyways.