Many years ago, I lost a sum of money that would have been enough to buy a used local car. I took this money out on credit from a bank. Now it’s hard for me to imagine that I was capable of such a thing. How deep did you have to get into gambling to do that? It still remains a mystery. It was most likely already an addiction, and a very serious one. At that time, I didn’t have this understanding. It came later, when people close to me started telling me about it. Even then, I didn’t want to believe it, but I still had to come to the realization of this fact. Through force and pain. How else?
What forced you to continue gambling when you have already lost a lot of money? Whenever I gamble and lose, or spend money, sometimes thoughts like
what am I doing, I could have spent those money differently appear, I start to feel greedy and stop spending/losing money. Believe it or not, but greed has saved me from losing too much money or wasting them stupidly. As sometimes I feel pity to spend

Something like I understand that something can not cost that much. For example I can buy a tshirt for 20 bucks, and I can buy a tshirt for 120 bucks, but I feel greedy spending so much on a tshirt
