I've been in this cycle more times than I can count. After a big loss I’d feel sick, angry at myself, disappointed, full of regret. I'd swear it off thinking that was the last time but then a few days or weeks later, once the sting wore off and a bit of money came in, I’d convince myself that this time would be different.

I'm starting to realise that the real challenge isn’t making the promise to stop, it’s building something stronger than the impulse when it returns.