Recently, I lost someone incredibly dear to me, and it’s left me in a deeply difficult place mentally. I can’t stop replaying the call about her death in my head, yet I haven’t been able to cry—it’s like I’m trapped between numbness and overwhelming grief. To cope, I’ve been throwing myself into work, just to avoid thinking about it.

For context, I did everything I could to make sure she had the best possible life until her very last day. There’s comfort in knowing that, but the pain of losing her is still eating me alive.

My question is: Will this feeling ever get better? Right now, it feels like this loss is hollowing me out from the inside, and I don’t know how to move forward.