It's good that you did learn your lesson, and it's good that we who shared our opinion here at least helped you at least a little bit and let you realize your mistakes.

As for how will you pay that debt, if you can find another income source where that will help you make more money then you will be able to pay that debt within a shorter amount of time. I would suggest that you tell the whole story to that person who let you borrow $45,000. Take all of the bad words that he will be saying because you deserves it, but in the end, you will be paying that debt. Spend your precious time working to pay that.

Seeking for help might be helpful, but if you can't find another income source, that will help you a little. It's good that you are thinking of not playing again. Like what I'm saying, there's nothing wrong with gambling as long as you're responsible. You aren't and these are the consequences. I hope that you're okay now OP, and plan on what you will do to pay those debt.