One of my colleagues told me that he has access to a rigged or fixed game. He said he was sure that we would win big if we bet on these games. Greed took over me and I wanted to win big. I had to use all my one week allowance to place the bet. When the game came out, it became clear that we had been deceived, we lost the bets. It was a frustrating experience because I had used all the money I was to use for my basic needs like food and drinks. I was forced to depend on my fellow workers to survive and it was frustrating. This was when I learned never to bet on money that should be used for essential need. The most painful part was that I had to beg to survive for one week.
That is really a very heartbreaking story of your life. You beg for your survival. What else should gambling do to a gambler? In gambling, luck is the most important factor, which can make you win if it's on your side otherwise, it will make you a beggar. But besides this, prediction is the worst enemy. How can you predict that I can be on your side without knowing anything? I would advise you not to use the money you are using for personal expenses and to work on your control system to get the situation under your control. Secondly, if you are putting your life at risk, then do what is necessary to make your bet win.