My condolences to the bereaved family/friends. May GOD help them bear it.

It's important to note as a convert you are exposed to new reality and need a stronger body to handle it. True baptism renews the body and makes it very strong to be bear with the new reality.

MESSIAH Says: "no one puts new wine into old wineskins; or else the new wine bursts the wineskins, the wine is spilled, and the wineskins are ruined. But new wine must be put into new wineskins.”