My joy is that, you are just a newbie and as time goes on you will definitely understand what class of asset bitcoin belongs to and the need to meet a certain level of knowledge before you can own and hold bitcoin as an assets.
From your statement, you sound clearly as someone who lack the basic understanding of Bitcoin, but glad that you will learn along the way as you keep interacting with other members of the forum and sharing ideas about bitcoin.
What i will advise you is that, you should unlearn that wrong assumptions you have build about bitcoin, because having such mindset cozld and will hinder your learning process and how you adopt concepts that can help you in your bitcoin accumulation journey