now i thinking about suicide! (no joke)

What you should do before you commit suicide is take huge fucking loans from the bank, go heavy on the leverage and wait 1 year and see if you're rich. If not, you can contionue to your first step
edit: lol@above post
Kenji, if you are seriously suicidal, as a result of your "investing" activities, do not fucken listen to Podyx...