now i thinking about suicide! (no joke)

USA National Suicide Prevention LifelineNo matter what problems you are dealing with, we want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) youll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.orghttp://www.suicide.org/suicide-hotlines.html---
That's everything I've found

Consider your decision.
best reply.
concerning the suicide thing: don´t. it´s only money. it is not as important as it seems.