I got a better idea, lets try this bitchick..
My last job was warden for city of edinburgh council in the temp accomodation for the homeless.. laid off on 7th jan, never claimed benefit's for over 7 months, as I thought, ok, lets see how far I get using NO money.
Did god provide food? No, because laws prevent planting it. So he could not feed me. I sold a plethora of nice synths to survive. Eventually I ran out of things to sell. Did god feed me? No. I haggled and bargained to the point folks got fed up with me including family and close friends.. where was your god when I ended up almost starving to death?
Where was Jesus?
In the end, I had to get off my fuckin arse and get my shit together. Cause I knew god, even if he could, could NOT help due to the laws in place.
It is easy to get disappointed in God when things don't go the way we want them to. But it isn't like God is our giant Santa Claus in the sky. He doesn't promise us a life of no pain or suffering. He promises to walk with us through it, if we allow Him and ask Him to. Also, as a Christian, I am called to be like Christ. What did Jesus go through? He went through hunger, homelessness, rejection, persecution and even death on a cross. Who am I to say that God has to give me anything? If all Jesus ever does for me is forgive my sins and give me the hope of heaven, then that is enough and I will be forever grateful. However, every good and perfect gift does come from the hand of God and He has been very good to me even in this physical life I am living now. (not that I haven't had suffering by any means! We all suffer. We are living in a fallen world with pain, sickness, death, etc. all around us)
What gives you the right to even think, let alone claim I was dissapointed? I already knew God would not help, I knew no-one else would either, just like the christian churches, so much space, gold etc, but so many people going homeless, whilst they fat cunts in rome got you ass kissin so they can get fatter.. Yeah, god prefers you over a homeless person.. sez it all..
I assumed you were disappointed because you said, "Where was your God when I ended up almost starving to death?" That sounded like you were disappointed.
You are right. The church should be there for you. We are supposed to be the hands of Jesus. He even says, "Whatever you have done for the least of these you have done for me." So if there was some people that were supposed to help you in the "church" and they did not, they will be held accountable for that someday. Just because someone is in a church does not mean that they are living the way that they should.
Question, when you were homeless, did you pray? Did you sincerely ask God to help, or did you just shake your fist in the sky and say, "God I hate you for allowing me to go through this!? There is a difference. God gives grace to the humble. He comes to those that ask. We need to ask though. God will never push Himself on us. He waits for us to approach Him.
Also, it seems your anger and frustration is more directed at the church then even at God. Maybe you are right in this. Nothing ticked off Jesus more than the hypocrites in the church. He overthrew the money changing tables outside the temple, so Jesus can understand that for sure. But don't hate Jesus for what hypocrites are doing (or not doing in this case.)