Thanks for you valuable insights to the Monero team, and I think you are wrong about Rptiella being a negative force, so far his contributions have been unmatched only by the Monero team themselves, that build Monero, the MEW is really well done and I think you take his views and opinions too harshly, its his views and I dont think anyone follows him by default but take his words in high regards when creating a opinion or taking actions, like the Monero devs took yours.
Also I dont think you are totally crazy anymore, just a bit narcissist like most genius. There will never be a perfect coin because people want things different, so a perfect for some is not the same for other.
Last, no one is forced to like or buy BBR or XMR, if someone chooses XMR is because they see its merits as more valuable.