I can't say that understand most of your post but I'll try to answer it anyway.
I have no idea if you're a troll but you do come accross as one. Maybe the obvious language barrier makes it seem even worse. Also the fact that all your accounts (or what I suspect are also yours) seem to post the same bs so...there's that.

UP never cencorsed me or put a leash on me. It's just the longer the pre-launch phase goes on the more I get frustrated with people and the easier it is for me to say something I shouldn't have. I'm very aware that I have a bit of a temper but that always has been the case and UP never talked with me about that. Think I've gotten better at that recently  

No idea what I'm supposed to confess.