To be honest, ive been in your position exactly a year ago, while it seems i need those paychecks but im too lazy to work. I got no motivation, no support from my friends, family and other close relatives.
I might have to resume working two jobs. I was experiencing a great deal of anxiety while doing this. I'm not sure if I can return to this way of life. I don't see things getting any better, therefore a part of me wants to end it all. But ive also come to this place and learning cryptos same as youu