I had consistent profits that went to day to day expenses so I never got to a higher amount to trade with even more successfully, but trading has been saving my life so far, I know how to trade.
I didn't even ask for any donations ever, not even for Bitcoin events, and not even after Phoenix Technologies Cloud Mining company scammed me along with many other investors and companies that invested in their data center and services. People mostly invent stories because they know they can't get honest, humane help when needed, that's why there are so many scammers out there people.
Anyway I received the loan on another platform, this thread can be closed now.
Thanks to everyone who commented, thank you for your insights and time.