Pump yourself with utmost positivity! I've been in your shoes before as it maybe be depressing = sleepless nights but your positivity should push you to another level. Be an example, influencer and most importantly, make that change you know is right, happen. You do all these, everything else will fall in the right place. Sometimes you have to look yourself in the mirror and let the mirror do the talking. NEVER give up easily. If it's your fault, instead of asking for a chance, EARN that chance. Be optimistic!