Good morning,
I'm not sure who the most deserving seal is for the 10k ticket giveaway. 2bits is a great guy and he has helped many seals along the way, myself included. Joan is one of the nicest people that I've ever come across and she has also helped many seals along the way, myself included. There are others that also qualify for such a prize, but those two stand out in my mind as the most dedicated and deserving seals around. <3
Me? I'm PaulC and I used to be a decent poker player, or so I thought. I first came to seals in 2015 because I was poor and the word around the internet was that there were good freerolls. I was not disappointed. Within six months after joining seals, I possessed 6.3 bitcoins, which was worth about $2000. I cashed out a bit, pun intended, which helped with the cashflow problem, and I put it to good use in my everyday life. I tried to keep the winning streak going, but the tables turned and I slowly lost the rest. I look back at that time with some mild regrets due to bitcoin prices skyrocketing, but I really needed the money.
Fast forward to present time and I'm looking back at many ups and downs, both in real life and on the felt. I've studied poker at an almost obsessive level for the past decade and I think my poker record in isolation is pretty decent. However, desperation has led me down a dark path. I borrow often and I currently carry a little debt, both from supportive seals such as 2bits and Joan, and also from some other generous friends that have helped me through hard times. I'm very appreciative and thankful even though it's hard for me to verbalize such appreciation.
Desperation is hard on the mind. It tricks one into thinking that there's no other choice. When desperation is coupled with legit mental issues, bad things tend to happen both in real life and on the felt. The past few years have taught me that this is very true. It may be a joke to some; it may be sad to others. For the one living with a serious mental issue coupled with desperation, it's not funny at all, but I'm not looking for pity. I'm just hoping this message comes across as a warning to those that find themselves in desperate situations. In real life and in certain corners of the internet, I'm currently on a crusade of the mind. Many people suffer in silence because they are afraid of rejection, discrimination, and confrontation. It doesn't have to be this way. You can live your life and be honest with yourself and others. You can be happy.
My current situation isn't pretty and I can only blame myself. I've tried many jobs over the past decade, but I don't handle stress well. Stress causes my anger, anxiety, and depression to get out of control after just a few hours working. Basically, I do anything and everything that comes my way to make money. It's not enough to survive without help, which I get a lot of. However, I recently landed a job. I just need to get some clients. I've been approved by a major dog service company and I'm looking forward to making some new friends, and a little money. I recently completed the application process for independent housing and I was seventh on the list as of October 20118. I'm looking forward to a fresh start. I have not tried to live on my own since 2008. I'm ready now. My mental issues are under control and I have not spent a night in a hospital in over four years. The love of a great woman has helped a lot. Sure, we've had ups and downs like any couple, but we stick by each other through the tough times and the good. I know for a fact that she has my back and that I have hers.
Like I said, I don't know who the most deserving seal is for this 10k ticket giveaway. However, I probably need it as much as the next guy. I trust seals to make the right decision, which in the end probably means letting Joan or 2bits play the Big Btc tourney for free. If seals picks me? It could make a big difference in my life.
thanks for reading, gl today, peace,
PaulC