so sick man
however, you'll never get unstuck if you quit now
when i used to play poker, i could never win on full tilt, so i took my action to pokerstars, party poker, 888 and winamax where I actually had a fair shot with their RNG, and got my money back with some profit
at the casino, there are just some blackjack dealers i cant win against, so i move tables to switch the luck
when i'm running bad in the crypto slots, i like to do the same and jump around between the options. i dont gamble nearly the amounts you do, but i've had some good luck and experiences with the provably fair slots at bitvest, crypto-games and more recently mintdice.
luck should work both ways and you don't need to lose every time in a fair system. gambling should be something fun that you can trust