I`m holding, holding it so tight that I might let it go sometimes to gambling

Technically we are all winners if you hold and forget about bitcoin then come back a year later lol.

I've bought ducktape and covered myself on USB pendrives with my wallet so I don't even to hold it.

You should use that tape to cover USB ports to help you fight the urge to stop hodling, should it ever come Cheesy

You are best putting the pendrives in a time lock safe. No need to fight the urge to stop hodling then.