Quote from: OROBTC on August 02, 2015, 04:59:30 AM

"These guys hold the whip hand."

OROBTC you come from the old world. I think you don't really have a good handle on how the information age is changing all these assumptions that you think are valid. I mean maybe you all will end up being correct and I will end up the buffoon who tied to do everything differently. Time will tell...

Nobody holds a whip hand over me. They can take my code from my cold dead hand. You don't understand that I built for an example an entire one man software company servicing 0.3 - 1% of the entire internet. I never had to take vulture capital and I never will.

I had enough commitments for funding. But I can't find any qualified mathematicians or programmers who want to be paid.

One of the issues is I demanded that people follow some basic computer security, such as running an air gapped computer for decrypting all messages and for all coding.

Also I am accustomed to working very closely in a team. When I worked with Mark Zimmer and Tom Hedges (two Caltech geniuses), we worked in cubicles without separate offices. We could shout any thing and there was a feeling of energy and motivation from working together to achieve goals. And communication was very efficient. I still remember the late Tom Hedges would send me instructions that were one sentence. I was smart enough to deduce everything from that one sentence that wasn't written. I can't find anyone like that today. Everybody here always misunderstands even I write volumes and volumes of explanation.

The actual situation is that most people are really fucking loathe to lift a finger to do anything that they don't already do. And most people do not believe there is any grave threat on the horizon. You know most people don't worry about the future, they figure if society ever collapses then they will be in the same boat as everyone else so c'est la vie.

Yet I run around doing what ever I need to in order get things done, building computers, operating from numerous locations because Bitmessage doesn't work in my home office, etc.. All of this while also enduring the way the Multiple Sclerosis can sap energy and generally makes one feel sort of like they are zombie (even its better perhaps than it was but it is not like I feel supercalifragilisticexpialidocious, rather just less worse).

Any way I was not putting that message out there to say I needed money. I was wondering if there were any talented mathematicians or programmers lurking who might suddenly spring into my private message box.

My "self-funded" comment was thinking maybe such an individual wouldn't already be busy with other jobs. Also I think people should work for a mix of cash and coins, yet it seems most people want the cash and they go to the highest bidder. No one really wants to sacrifice the way I did for example to create CoolPage, or how did in the 1980s to create Neocept's WordUp. I was working 12+ hours daily, ordering pizza, and literately sleeping under my desk for months in order to produce the first shipping version of those software. I didn't receive any income while coding. Note I can't eat pizza (nor peanut butter sandwiches) any more because of my leaky gut theory as to the cause of my Multiple Sclerosis.

I was also expressing some disappointment in myself for wasting 6 weeks, when I should have not even tried to recruit any one and had my head down being productive. Perhaps the main reason I felt I needed to recruit was because I lack the discrete math, theory of numbers, etc.. (my math at the university was Calculus 1 - 3, Diff Equations, Linear Algebra, Probability & Statistics, Numerical Analysis, Set Theory, Applied Linear Algebra, Applied Mathematics 1 - 2, Logic, ...which I aced without going to class just cramming the entire chapters the night before exams). I figure I could probably absorb that math with some textbooks within a few months, but I didn't want to lose that time. And also I really wanted to have some peer review to make sure I hadn't made a mistake. I mean I can sort of wing it by copying code from other projects but it is not the same as having a holistic understanding. So I lured myself into that trap that I had always avoided most of my life. Mistake. Mea culpa. Pissed at myself.

I returned this afternoon from a very intense gym workout for a 50 year old with Multiple Sclerosis. Have only been able to get to the gym twice in past 3 - 4 weeks because working night and day. I don't even know when I sleep or when I awake, it is just chaotic something like 18 hours worked per day.

Before I had M.S., I used to feel so very energized and floating on a cloud after my intense sports and exercise. With M.S., I feel like shit after such as itchiness all over my body, pains or itchiness (always varies minute to minute) on my head, numb legs, etc.. Everyday for me is not a picnic. It is a struggle. I don't get to smile as much any more. I was always known as being so jolly (except when I turn on my tiger in sports or any form of competition such as work and study time). That is not to say it is as horrible or debilitating as it was during the worst times between 2012 and early 2015. However, I can't be sure I am objective. I might just be adjusting to to the tsuris of it and thinking that it is improving.

Any way, opened this site just curious if I might find some post from someone who can talk tech shop with me, or someone who also wants to go for anarchist micronation solution. But then it is always the same. I've been on this site since 2013 and it is always the same.

loathe to lift a finger to do anything that they don't already do

That is why the people will not win against TPTB and all of you will fall into the NWO. Just accept it. Why are you all even trying to hold onto to your wealth? It is pointless. None of you have the balls to do what needs to be done any way. Just give up already. You've already lost.

You wouldn't dare consider making an anarchist micronation because it is too disruptive to your everyday lives. You all couldn't possibly imagine actually having to change your life and demand your relatives and offspring change their lives or lose closeness with you.

Instead you'd rather accept the NWO.

Well I can't blame you. Just go on your merry way. Never mind me. I am just weird. I am not like you. I am different.

I am the guy who threw away my family in the USA and traveled to the Philippines in 1990 at the age of 25 without even a hotel reservation. Just showed in the third world for my first time! I hadn't been beyond Tijuana. It was really the 3rd world back in those days. Fires and smokey piles of trash burning all along Manila bay. People living in cardboard shacks along estuaries.

I don't know if there is any one on this entire site who did what I did and also had major accomplishments too?

Who out there is my peer?

P.S. And my former boss Mark Zimmer works for Apple helping them build top-down control walled gardens and he believes hackers are bad and he has a duty to stop terrorists, etc.. I am not even synergistic with him any more either. I still respect his talent, empathize with his degenerating hips, and he empathized with my M.S. (didn't know it was M.S. when I explained my symptoms to him some years ago), and now I see he has stopped posting to his blog so I doubt I can contact him. Not that I have a reason to. The world has changed. I got old or something.

Maybe there is a lesson here. Maybe who gives a hoot about the NWO right? The important is you have your family and your health right? Maybe you are just fine. The world can go totalitarian or what ever, and you still have your family and health right? Why are we even here in this forum any way?

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And what if the shit that is coming takes your family, takes your health, and takes your wealth. And leaves you a broken man. Well then maybe we'll have something in common then right?

So WTF am I doing here Huh