I will just tell you that I have decided I don't want to live with this illness. If it can't be cured, I don't want to live long like this. That is how crap it is. Now I have possibly a cure with the Oregano oil. We'll have to see. I think I also need a lifestyle change which is to complete stop the computer and be outside all day every day. But how can I do that and also code. So this is dilemma I am currently sorting through what my action plan will be. I'd rather not detail my thinking on this. More wasting time. I am in midst of many aspects right now.
That sounds a bit depressing. Yes it seems you need a lifestyle change. The issue is that usually you go off in public that you need a radical change and then you go back to your normal routine to exists in the hopeless Philippines and upset yourself in this forum.
IMHO you made a mistake to not working with the Gadgetcoin developers. Are they as knowledgeable and articulated as you are? No, they aren't, but they are hard working developers. They have completed their project which will be bigger than Bitcoin is. Even if you are not keen on IoT, the IoT aspect of their solution took them to many top 100 companies. That gives them credibility to make other features (token, social media, communication features) popular. The social media aspect of their project is inline with your social media ambition. You need to compromise on toolset, people, environment, etc. to get somewhere. If you are chasing the perfect environment you will get nowhere. You still have 15 years until retirement, use that time wisely!