Dude just go start a gofund me website and put the link here.
I think you will get some donations from the ones who really want to help you get out of this rut.
But you just got to say you won't just use the money you get from people's generosity back to this devil's site who made you lose this much and your reason to life to live.
Maybe have the btc address pointed to someone in escrow so everyone knows you have not touched it and sent to your bank account instead of bitcoin where it is not in your control to waste it gambling thus ending your life.
Yes but I respect the honest people this is not to you to help me, recently i lost my house because i tried to create a business compagny French Crepes, and everything is bad since that. I tried the last september to play betting for win money and I won 15 000 dollars (59 eTH) I was so happy and few hours later my account was closed. Since that i lost my parents in one car accident. So my life is really not funny i lost everything in my life
As someone already told you. Money is not everything.
If that money is the reason you are going to do it and not the fact your parents were killed. Then that is a mental issue.
If it is money being the reason then try one site that offers help for people
https://twinkas.com/about-twinkasBy giving donations they get rewarded for doing it as well so it is not seen as charity for you since it looks that way from the way you are writing about it.
Just a consideration for a soul in desperate need from the sounds of it.